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London Craft has exactly the life she wants. She’s a successful artist with a hot line of edgy clothing and merchandise she sells from her boutique, Hell in a Handbasket. Along with her incredible chosen family, she’s in a loving relationship with Reggie, her girlfriend of six years.
When Reggie blindsides London with a public marriage proposal, London freezes. She’s never wanted anything traditional, let alone marriage. When Reggie leaves her, she thinks things can’t possibly get worse, until she receives the call that her estranged mother has died. Suddenly, she’s catapulted into contact with the family she hasn’t seen in nearly twenty years.
After her mother’s funeral, London discovers a letter she wrote to her future self as part of a school project when she was ten years old. Face-to-face with her childhood ideals and the drastically different life she’s built, London must find her way to the future—and love—she truly wants.
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London Undone
© 2019 By Nan Higgins. All Rights Reserved.
ISBN 13: 978-1-63555-563-9
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Editor: Barbara Ann Wright
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Acknowledgments
A vast community of readers, writers, and editors put a lot of work into this book. They are all uniquely equipped to either extinguish a fire I’d left unsupervised, light a fire under my butt, or as was often the case, perform both tasks at the same time.
When I finished the rough draft of London Undone and wasn’t sure what to do with it, I asked for beta readers and was overwhelmed at how many people reached out to me. Those who saw London at her most disheveled helped me take a few steps back and see the big picture: Jason Cox, Paul Evans, Cynthia Kazaroff, Courtney Sellers, Misti Simmons, Heidi Steiber, Jaime Winkel, and Malikah Woody—I’m so grateful to you all.
Erin Sweet-Al Mehairi edited my rough manuscript. Her kindness, professionalism, and perfect blend of tough feedback and gracious encouragement were invaluable to me.
After all the work that went into writing London Undone, I almost didn’t send it out into the world because of my fear of the dreaded query letter and synopsis. Octavia Reese helped me get out of my own way and gave me the resources and, more importantly, the kick in the pants I needed to get the damn thing done.
Finally, I am incredibly thankful for all the fantastic folks at Bold Strokes Books, who have been knowledgeable and generous. I especially want to thank Sandy Lowe for answering my endless questions and my editor, Barbara Ann Wright, who guided me through this process with skill, humor, and more than a healthy serving of patience.
For Misti, who inspired me to start writing again, and for Ben and Edison, who are proud of this book, even though there are no zombies or dinosaurs in it.
Chapter One
“N, fifty-eight,” Lotta Lays shouted, licking her brightly painted lips. “We’re looking for an N, fifty-eight!”
“Bingo!”
London and her friends groaned and moved the tabs on their wooden bingo boards so they were blank again. They only had one more chance to win tonight.
“I thought someone was gonna tell Lotta it’s my birthday so she’d make sure I’d win,” said Reggie, tucking her mini-braids behind her ears. Her eyes, the same color as the whiskey she sipped, focused on her now blank bingo board.
Thomas shrugged. “We did tell her, but she has to use that bingo app on her phone so there’s no way to cheat the system.”
London kissed her girlfriend on the cheek. “It’s okay, Reggie. I’ll make sure you win big when we get home.” Regina Williams ran her fingers through London’s mane of blue hair—hair London achieved with a color called Royal Sky—and kissed her, the sad bingo board forgotten.
“And I’m sure what you win in the bedroom will be better than the DVD box set of Facts of Life, season two.” Grant took a swig of beer. “Where the hell is Tate with our drinks? He went up for the next round ten minutes ago.”
London tried to see the bar, but even from her high stool, she couldn’t get a glimpse. Cavan, their favorite hangout, was packed this evening. Every dark corner—and with the oak-paneled walls, there were a lot of dark corners—was crowded with enthusiastic patrons. Normally, she knew at least half the customers by face if not by name, and she liked to think of it as Columbus’s gay version of Cheers, but Lotta Lays had been bringing in drag queens from other clubs to perform between bingo sets, and it turned their low-key weekly tradition into more of a production than usual.
“I don’t see Tate,” said Thomas, “but here comes Lotta.”
The glittering drag queen was making her way to their spot at the back of the bar, microphone in hand, chatting with the clientele at each table as she went. “Are you two leaving together tonight?” Lotta asked two men who looked so young, this might have been one of their first experiences inside a bar. The fairer of the two blushed and looked at his companion, who grinned but did not speak. “That’s a yes!” Lotta guffawed.
She moved on to a group of boisterous women who’d been heckling her all night. “How are you broads?”
“I love your dress,” slurred one.
“Thank you, honey,” said Lotta. “You won’t find this at the Big & Tall Men’s Shop.” She straightened her blond Marilyn Monroe wig and batted her false eyelashes.
Tate arrived with a fresh round of drinks just before Lotta got to their table. His normally pale skin was a deep strawberry red from the heat of the crowded bar, and a few tendrils of his dark blond hair had tightened into corkscrew curls.
“It’s a madhouse in here tonight,” he said.
“No kidding,” said Reggie. “You were gone so long, I was afraid one of Lotta’s queens ate you alive.”
“Would I let that happen?” demanded Lotta, arriving at Reggie’s side. “No,” she said, almost to herself. “If anyone’s gonna eat this fine specimen, it’s gonna be me!” She pinched Tate’s cheek, and he laughed. “This man just brings out the beast in me!” Lotta put her mouth closer to the microphone and purred, and the customers of Cavan hooted and clapped.
“Seriously, folks,” Lotta said when the cheers died down, “I want everyone to give a hand to the people at this table. They are so regular here at Cavan, you’d think we put liquid fiber in their drinks.” While the patrons clapped, Tate whispered something in Lotta’s ear. “Oh, say that again out loud, sugar.” She pushed the microphone up to his mouth.
“Uh, it’s our friend Reggie’s birthday today,” Tate said.
“That’s right,” Lotta said. “That’s right. I haven’t forgotten you, Reggie. We’ll be getting you up on stage after the next bingo set for your shot of birthday Fireball.”
Reggie laughed and nodded, and Lotta walked back to the front of the club to introduce Honey Pot, the next drag queen, performing “Hit Me Baby, One More Time.”r />
“Anybody wanna go smoke?” asked Tate.
London gave him a playful pop to the belly. “Nobody smokes but you.”
“Yeah, but you could come out and breathe fresh air before the next bingo game,” he said. “It’s hot in here. Please?”
Five minutes later, they were all on the patio. Surprisingly, given the size of the crowd inside, it was deserted. Two of the drag queens who’d performed earlier sat at a corner table, and one of them had her size twelve stilettoed feet up on the table.
“I can’t believe you wanted to come to Cavan for your birthday, Reg,” said Grant. “No city besides San Fran has more gay clubs than the ’Bus, and you decided to come to our usual place.”
Reggie shrugged. “I like it here.”
London smiled. If it had been her birthday, it would have been an extravaganza of club after club, with dancing and drag shows, pageantry and debauchery. Her girlfriend wanted to play bingo with her friends, drink some beers, visit with their favorite drag queen in town, and call it a night. She loved her for it.
“Do you guys want to do brunch tomorrow?” asked Thomas. He sipped his Scotch on the rocks and wrapped his light jacket around his slight frame. “Tip Top’s mimosas are calling me.”
Grant chuckled and looped his arms around Thomas’s waist. “I love my little lush.” Grant was always described as a teddy bear, which he hated. “Might as well just slap a sticker on my forehead that says, ‘hairy and chubby,’” he’d mutter whenever someone made the comparison.
Thomas arched an eyebrow. “You’re one to talk.”
“Oh, I know,” said Grant, who slipped the Scotch from Thomas’s fingers, took a long swig, and kissed his boyfriend.
“Awkwardly single, party of one,” Tate muttered.
“Please.” London rolled her eyes. “Nobody feels bad for you. You get hit on twenty times a day.”
“Yeah, mostly by men,” said Tate. “Not that I’m not flattered, of course. If I liked dick, I’d be all set. Alas, I’ve always preferred donuts to bananas.”
“That’s a real shame,” Grant said. “Bananas are much healthier for you.”
“Speak for yourself,” said Reggie.
“Anyway,” Thomas said, “brunch?”
“I’m not sure,” said London. “I may have to stop in at the store in the morning.”
Reggie frowned. “What? You didn’t tell me that.”
“I’m sorry. With the holidays coming up, I really need to organize the inventory.”
“The holidays? It’s September,” said Reggie. “And isn’t this why you hired Jasmine as a co-manager? So you wouldn’t have to be in the store on Sundays? And after all these years, doesn’t Jasmine basically run the store?”
“I just want to make sure we’re prepared.” London stared at Reggie’s perplexed face. “Baby, what’s the big deal? It would just be for a few hours.”
“I…I had plans for us tomorrow.”
Before London could express her surprise, a deep voice called from the doorway into Cavan. “Hey, guys, before the next queen starts her set, I’m gonna bring Reggie up on stage for her birthday shot.” Marcus, aka Lotta Lays, fastened a clip-on to her ear. She picked up the microphone from the table at the entrance, and in her Lotta voice, said, “Before we hear from Ms. Sugar Pants, we’re going to bring our birthday girl up here!”
The group shuffled inside to stand beneath the stage as Lotta climbed the stairs with her tumbler of amber-colored liquid and raised her glass. The stage at Cavan wasn’t even as big as a parking space, but the performers made the best of it.
“You know, I have a tradition here at Cavan to bring the birthday boys and girls forward to do a shot of Fireball with me. I’d like to ask Regina Williams to come up on stage.” As Reggie made her way up the few steep steps, Lotta continued. “Reggie is a good friend to us here at Cavan, and if you’re a part of the queer community in Columbus, Ohio, chances are she’s a good friend to you too. A director and spokesperson for Stonewall Columbus, Reggie works hard every day to advocate for equality and freedom for all of us. It’s a pleasure to have her on this stage tonight.”
Lotta reached down to the server’s outstretched hand, took the shot glass filled to the brim with Fireball, and carefully handed it to Reggie.
“Happy birthday!” She tapped their glasses together. The crowd echoed the sentiment as Reggie and Lotta did their shots.
“Now,” Lotta said, handing their empty glasses back to her husband, “we are going to do something a little different. Reggie has asked to say a few words, and since it’s her birthday, and she’s so special to us, I’ve agreed to give up my precious microphone for a few minutes.”
Confused, London looked at her friends, her brow furrowed.
“I take it you didn’t know anything about this?” asked Tate.
“Not at all.”
Reggie took the microphone and cleared her throat, twisting her braids through the fingers of her free hand.
“Hi, everyone,” she said and cleared her throat once more. “As Lotta said, tonight is my birthday, and on your birthday, you get to make a wish. Wishes aren’t usually my thing. My girlfriend is the one who makes the wishes.” Reggie paused to look at London and smile. “She’s an expert. She wishes on stars, she wishes on candles, on pennies she throws into a fountain; she even wishes when she notices the clock says 11:11. And she won’t ever tell me what she’s wishing for, either, because, of course, that means the wish won’t come true.
“This year, months before my birthday, I started wondering what I would wish for when this night rolled around. When I stood up here and did my birthday shot with Lotta, what would be my wish? For inspiration, I pictured London every time she makes a wish. She closes her eyes, crosses both hands over her heart, and breathes really deep. When she opens her eyes, she nods her head and says, ‘It’s done.’
“The funny thing is, even though I never know what the hell she’s wishing for, I always believe in it. I believe it’s going to come true.” Reggie closed her eyes, put her hands on her heart, and took a deep breath. When she opened them, she looked directly at London and got down on one knee.
“London,” Reggie said, her voice wavering but strong, “somehow, you make me believe in wishes so much that I even want to make one for myself. The only possible wish I could make, the only one that would truly matter, is for you to be my wife. So tonight, I’m making my first wish since I was seven years old. And I’m asking you now: London Craft, will you marry me?”
London could see people cheering and clapping, but all she could hear was a deafening ring in her ears. She stood, paralyzed by the weight of this unexpected question, staring at Reggie: her expectant and hopeful face—that face with the enormous brown eyes and wide lips that she loved—turned first confused, then hurt, and then angry. A bitter taste filled London’s mouth, as if the guilt and anxiety coursing through her had bubbled up and landed on her tongue. She didn’t know how much time passed before Reggie got up, scrambled off stage, and out toward the patio. When London ran after her, she noticed her cell phone was ringing but ignored it.
How had this happened? The only times they’d spoken about marriage were early in their relationship, when London explained it wasn’t something she wanted. As much as she was devastated for Reggie, there was an undercurrent of resentment that Reggie had made such a public proposal without checking in to see if her feelings on the matter had changed.
“Reggie!” London yelled. She saw her striding to the side gate toward the parking lot. “Reggie, wait!”
Reggie whirled around “What for? So you can further humiliate me?”
“Please, I’m sorry,” London said. “It was a shock, I just…I just wasn’t expecting this.”
Reggie gaped. “You weren’t? Almost six years together, and you’ve never even considered marriage?”
London swallowed hard, and the bitterness burned her throat. “No,” she said, almost in a whisper.
“That’s
great, London. That’s just great. All this time, I’m thinking we’re going to spend the rest of our lives together, and you haven’t even thought about it.”
“Wait a minute. I do want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to be with you forever. But you know how I feel about marriage, Reg. It’s an archaic institution created by the patriarchy, to—”
“Please, don’t talk about the fucking patriarchy right now,” said Reggie. “You just rejected me in front of a bunch of people.”
The resentment that had been an undercurrent flashed to the surface. London’s phone began ringing again, and when she declined the call, she saw it was an unknown number. “I didn’t reject you. This doesn’t have to change anything.”
“Doesn’t have to…” Tears streaked Reggie’s face. “This changes everything.”
“Why?” London grabbed for Reggie’s hands, and Reggie jerked away, backing up. “Baby, I love you, and I want to spend forever with you. We don’t need to get married.”
“I do. I need it.”
“Since when?”
“You know,” Reggie said, choking on tears, “I remember when the Supreme Court struck down DOMA, and we got national marriage equality. You and I danced in the streets all night together. I thought we were building to this moment.”
“But…I thought you knew how I felt about marriage. When we talked about being together always, I didn’t know you meant getting married. How could I have expected this? We haven’t talked about it in five years.”
Reggie used her balled-up fist to wipe tears from her face. “I guess that’s my mistake, then.” She turned and opened the gate.
London grabbed her shoulder. “Please don’t go,” London said. Her voice was thick with the tears that couldn’t fall, tears that felt lodged in her throat.